If I'm gone...

Motherhood makes you all serious and stuff. For instance, this past week I've been trawling t'internet for life insurance. How very grown up and early thirties of me. I remember a  time not too long ago when my internet traffic went mostly to ASOS.com, closely followed by Topshop.com and Net-a-Porter.com for the all important fantasy shopping spree. Life insurance makes you think about providing for your little one if you're not here and ultimately leads to you thinking about who would look after baby if you weren't around. Depressing as it is, it's a reality you have to think about and will influence your choice of godparents. As Nai Nai's mummy I'm in charge of seeking suitable godmothers, hubby's job is finding godfathers. For me, two women immediately sprung to mind, AA and DBB. These two are a rare breed of friend, the great friend who is also a relative and even better one from each side of my family, from hubby's side and from mine. They are as similar as they are different. AA is a couple of years younger than me, works in the music industry, is her own boss, driven and dynamic, and sometimes so silly. DBB is a few years older, is pretty high up in her profession, works harder than most people I know and has that air of someone that is so completely comfortable with themselves. They have both been there for me in both quiet and obvious ways at various points in my life and they both genuinely love and care about me and bubs. Sad as it makes me, I know that if I weren't here they would bring Nai Nai up to be the mini-me I want her to be. If I weren't here I know they would tell her all about the Scottish-Ghanaian connection, my love of Jay-Z and my obsession with wearing gold and black at every opportunity. Picking a godparent for your baby isn't all about having someone around for guaranteed babysitting and great gift giving (although DBB turned up with a Mulberry bag on my 30th birthday!) - you're picking someone to replace you if God forbid you were no longer around. Something to think about mamas - select wisely. I know I have.